2012- to be

Is going to be Christmas in 15days time. Are you ready to celebrate this festive season and sing all the wonderful songs together with the world? I'm not ready yet because the most important thing ain't prepare yet. My Christmas gift for friends! It's something simple and nothing expensive but is the thought that counts! :)

Anyway, I'm going to start blogging wordy post from now onward. Either a long post from me or no post from me! :) So I either have find time to type or I will be lazy to do it till I have the time to. So please be understanding because I rarely have time to rest. My job working hours are crazy. For those who don't know what I work please read my post. :)

Year 2012 wishlist.
1. A better year than 2011
2. better relationship with my fat ass<3
3. plan my future
4. Bangkok with Batchmates ( Bangkok, Taiwan & Hong Kong)
5. Bali with <3
6. Save lots of money
7. Ipad 3

Well, I wanted to get ipad 2 but friends have been telling that Ipad 3 is coming out so don't get it yet. I hope it is true that ipad 3 is coming. And I won't get the first generation for sure because lots of problem to first batch of apple products.

There's so much things that I wants and needs but it will never be enough. I'm always asking more than anything I needed and wanted. Greedy me. What about you? Have you thought of what you wanted and needed?

Alright, is almost time for my rest. I have work tomorrow and I'm going to drag myself to work. Saturday is a day people are heading to club or chilling with friends but I'm going to have a early night :( That's sad.

Goodnight world.

BANGKOK'12

I'm excited to go to bangkok with Sabrina. There are so many things I want to get and I really need to save money for those. Osaka this month need to control my spending!

I will update my post tomorrow. See you!

LIFE

I'm trying to find the motivation of sitting/lying right in front of my laptop and type this wordy long post before I head off to bed and sleep. I have been working and I'm looking forward to my leave which starts from 20 December till 25 December. Yes, I am not working on Christmas! :) I'm schedule to be on leave. Is a good thing to me, I guess. And right after Christmas, I'm schedule to go osaka layover! It's my first Osaka trip, I can't wait. May it be a good one.

Past few days were terrible for me. Yes, I'm off and I didn't get to see him at all. We had quarrel again and again. I was there just half a step to letting go. I didn't want to go with life like this anymore. Tired from all the quarrels and all. He was very very very patient with me trying not to let go. :) I never know how to handle matters like this :( Felt bad but I don't want to go on with quarrels.

I miss out so much things in life and I really wish to enjoy life. Life is so fragile. People dying during accidents and people dying after completing a marathon run. May the Lord bless this people and their family. RIP

I wonder how would it be if today's my last day on this earth?

Alright, shall here. Goodbye

Busy VS Lazy

I'm busy with work that I have no time to update. When I have the time, I'm lazy :(

DRAMA MAMA

I have the most drama mama flight yesterday and really tired after the whole flight. It was a PRC flight and heavy load somemore. Firstly, they stink. I do smell better than them! And secondly, they don't bother to find the toilet and one motherfucking old lady took off her pant and pee in my galley! That's my fucking working space and you peed there! Still can walk out half naked to the toilet and continue peeing. I was fucking piss off by her and I'm sorry to Pevinder to make you clean up for that.

then next one, stupid lady fainted right in front of my toilet's door. Call out to her so many times and no reply. The moment i drag her up, so many people want to be busybody but don't want to help. Useless shit! Thankful for my csm and crews there. Keep the lady accompanied and worried that she might vomit on my uniform at the same time. Useless husband was so rough on her that I called him to leave the galley.

Thank god everything was fine after awhile but the next terrible thing happen. The ground staffs at ningbo needs to go for training again! LIKE SERIOUSLY~We were stuck on ground for an hour plus because they didn't want to offload passenger. We needed to offload passengers due to the maximum of people we can take with us as we had only 4 oxygen cylinders available. And they didn't want and waste time. If they hit the pilots maximum flying hours, we wont able to fly back. FUCK YOU LAH!

passengers complaining non-stop about delay and all. And there are only two chinese speakers onboard, Cheryl and me. It's tiring to be explaining non-stop to the people.

My flight was so dramatic that I'm tired after everything. I needed to rest.

STEAMBOAT + AH CHEW

Current hairstyle and yes, i chop it shorter than before. I have no patient waiting for hair to grow long. Short hair is much more easier to maintain because I don't have to wake up early to dry my hair if it's long.

Town with YJ yesterday and got myself a new pair of shoes. Like finally! :) Though is not the one I have been searching for but still, I like it. YJ got the same pair of shoes as well. She has been aiming for that shoes for months. HAHA! and I also got myself a blackberry casing! Realised that my phone has so much scratches on it. HEART PAIN :(:(

after shopping, we headed to meet sherilyn at Taka. She was there buying James's present and then we shop a little at watsons before heading to bugis to shop again. Nothing caught my eyes at bugis. After that we heading to rest at food court while waiting for the guys to come. WAIT TILL I HUNGRY! ANGRY!

We decided to head off to find steamboat shop without them. The guys came real late and we started eating before they arrived. Yummyy. It was the best weather to eat steamboat because it was raining. I was sick as well :( Caught a cold I guess. After steamboat, we had ah chew for dessert. I have durian mango sago. yum yum. LIKE!

Then dessert ended, we headed home. Cab home because I couldn't take it anymore. Needed to rest badly.

And now, I need to nap because I'm heading to work tonight and will be staying in jakarta till next morning return. BYE

OFF DAY!

Had dinner with Sherilyn and Charles after flight yesterday. The bill came up to 100plus and we didn't ate much or maybe we did.

My flight was badly delayed on ground for an hour causing us to come back very late :( And thank God for the miracle and answering to my prayer. It was a good flight and whatever I worried did not happen. THANK GOD. And I'm sorry to kinda spoil the dinner. I was really tired and keep wanting to get home as soon as possible to sleep.

I'm missing my baby so much. Rarely get to see him because my schedule is so freaking packed! :( I hate it. Sorry if I have neglected you. <3

HEAD HURTS!

One more before I head off to bed and prepare myself flight tomorrow with him. :( I couldn't cheer myself up at all. Felt so worried about tomorrow flight. I need to improve so much on my work and make sure I don't give him chance to find fault in me.

Head still hurting badly and I feel like crying. I miss you so much baby. I wish you are right here beside me. It has been 5days that I didn't see you. WO HAO XIANG NI! :(

Alright, shall go study my ep before I sleep. BYE

MOODLESS

I wonder how will my day be tomorrow? I'm flying with him again and it makes me recall everything that happen during the flight. The very first thing I did was to text Nurul and told her I am moodless for tomorrow flight and also what happened the other time. She was trying to encourage me and convince me to go for flight with her. It had happened to her when she was still new. I just hope he can see I'm trying my best to improve my work. I don't wish to get another scolding tomorrow.

I haven't see you for few days and I miss you baby! :( I really wish you can just tell me some encouraging words right now. You are the reason I'm still fighting on with work. It's killing me but I'm still standing strong (maybe not) here.

Dear batchmates, I wish we were still having training like before. I don't wish to go through any of those scolding from those high up senior and csm! I miss all of you. <3

Dear headache, bodyache, throat and whatever it is, please be nice to me and get well soon! sincerely me!

S/K

I finally decided to call in sick and visit the doctor. Doctor gave me 2 months of vitamin to eat. I'm really tired and needed my rest badly. On AVL tomorrow, and was planning not to pick up any call at all.

And we received an unexpected news from the management. We have a pay rise and now is motivating me to work harder. Sabrina, Charlotte and I decided to head to bangkok next year February. It will be the three of us enjoying ourselves with no disturb! :)

So much things I wish to tell to my cell leader but I haven't had any time to visit her :( I really wish time will just slow down and let me have enough time for everything. It's coming to end of the year and I really wish that I could finish what is undone and start a new in the year of 2012.

time to write a reflection before the end of 2011. :) Cheers!

And I got activated for flight for my AVL. 4 sectors again! I aim to do well for this 4 sectors!

Dying for rest

I'm seriously dying for rest. Yes, I should be getting myself into bed and sleep, not typing in front of my laptop. I just came back from Hong Kong and the duty hours is 9.5hour but for me is 12 hours plus because I got activated when I was working as a carebear. :(

I was really really moodless for work but I have got no choice. SERIOUSLY WHY LIKE THAT. Dear fellow crews, please treat us well or you will suffer when we do the same to you.

I can't stop thinking of weiwei. I almost tear during work. I regret not knowing this matter earlier and at least I can send you off. At least a last time seeing you :( I miss you little sweetheart. You stay here in my heart forever.

I shall head to bed right now. goodnight

RIP

I was in total anger for work but after work, I met b and kinda make me forget. And right now, I just found out that weiwei's accident. I'm sorry to hear about this but RIP. We may not have contact each other for a very long period but I do still remember you. You were the little sweetheart of mine back then. You kept me accompanied on the phone for hours and even told you love it when I call you weiwei. I didn't expect to hear/read such a news about you. But what has happened, we can't change it. I just pray that your family will be able to accept the fact that you had already left us to another world. weiwei, I miss you and you live forever in our heart.

I still can't get over what I just read :( I'm sorry, I really can't.

Anyway, work sucks to the max because I work with the worst people ever. This people should just bang the wall and die. Like seriously! Yes, I may not have done well but what have you guys helped me? I even told you bitch that I never did 4sectors before! not even KL flight. I asked you some questions and how much did you help me? and slut, you don't judge me by my look and all. don't think you are a senior, you can disrespect me. I'm still your colleague! Seriously, this people needs to learn how to respect people. and to you attention seeker! you chao ah gua lah! you makes me hate ah gua so much now. YUCKS!

Thankful that I could share this with steff and she was telling me i should just report about this. But I chose to let the matter go. If this matter happens again, I will make sure that I report about it! FYLIFE!

4sectors!

I told myself that I will update before my off day ends which is actually today! :( I'm flying 4sectors tomorrow. 4sectors are SIN-SGN, SGN-SIN, SIN-KL and KL-SIN. I will only end work at 3plus in the afternoon. SIANSATION :(

I have no choice but to go to work. I chose this job and no one force me to. This is ain't like office work or any other ground handling work. I'm always in the air and is really tiring. No one will understand how screwed my body lock is. PIMPLES ARE POPPING OUT LIKE NOBODY BUSINESS TOO! :(

met Jiabin just now @ Tampines. Gave her a surprise birthday present. Rushed like mad to find her piglet and managed to get it @ Tampines 1's disney shop. Hope she likes the present, it is her favorite disney character. Then she got me gongcha and off to whitesand. I have been addicted to gongcha recently. Mum likes millktea too, especially pudding milktea. HAHA! She asked me to get her one when I go out. So funnneh!

Anyway, I need to sleep right now! Got to get up early for work. Goodnight!

Blogger VS wordpress

I'm more familiar with the features of blogger than wordpress and I love the simple background here. I have no idea how am I supposed to edit the background and all at wordpress.

Anyway, I haven't been updating any of my space because I have been so busy flying around. Not for leisure but for work. Yes, I do enjoy work but I'm tired as well. I just came back from Taipei this morning and it was 11hours of work on air. This is no joke at all alright. I'm proud to be a air stewardess but I need people to appreciate my work which is a motivation for me to continue working. I'm trying myself to do my part well and learn as I grow. And most importantly, I wish to be with my batchmates. They are the one I trusted the most at work because they were the one I spent one month plus together and till now, we are still close together. As looking forward to see them and fly with them.

Planning on holiday trips with Sabrina! Of course with the other girls coming along, Charlotte, Yj,han and Steff. Yj just flew to Osaka this morning, wondering how's she. I miss you yoyo tan! Steff and sabrina should be in the air to Hangzhou now. I want to meet up with all of you again!


First picture was taken during graduation when I still had my long hair and short fringe. Second picture is my short hair and long fringe. Took it recently, I think it was few days ago only :) I do miss my long hair a lot but it is so much easier with short hair! LIKE REALLY EASIER.

two days ago, I met my ex-colleagues on the plane. They were flying to Macau whereas for me, I'm working. LIKE DUH! -.- glad to see them and I really miss the time working in the office because I don't have to be walking in heels. I really wonder how long am I going to survive here in Jetstar. Let's wait and see!

goodbye readers.

L.O.V.E

Staying strong without you beside me. I don't know what's wrong with both of us anymore. We want each other by the side so much but we don't show it out. I'm no longer able to hold on to this anymore longer. I don't know how many more times will this ever happen. Again and again we quarrel, no ending to everything.

I just want you to know how much I need you, love you and I always long for a tight hug whenever we meet. I felt secure to be in your arm and you calling me baby. I just want you randomly coming to me hugging me too. I love you bringing me out to eat or even bring me to satisfy my craving. Thank you for the one year plus. I really don't wish to end this at all.

I'm always here. Loving you <3

hello 20

This is just somewhere which no one will ever be able to read unless I open the posts to public. I don't care whatever you want to say because this is my space, so is my say. I'm really pissed with such a person in this world. If you do not get what I'm talking, read my previous post.

Anyway, thank you for those who wishes me Happy Birthday. Appreciated every single wish from all of you. I was supposed to meet the birthday boy and girl, chew and michelle, to go to zoo but I was just too lazy. All I wanted to sleep and not wake up so early. :) I'm sorry about not going and the whole trip was cancel but still, Happy Birthday! Maybe one day, we will still meet up.

Felt so happy that the tan siblings know what I want for birthday. They got my MAC spf 50 face primer! :) yeah. thank you tans! best thing is that b accompanied me before the clock striked 12 midnight yesterday and also tonight, we are gonna meet! <3

b, it has been more than a year. I don't wish to lose you to anyone. I miss you every time we are apart. Don't ever say you want to leave! :(

Disgusted by your actions.

What's wrong with you that you have to do this? You make me feel so disgusted to have a friend like you. Firstly, you want to show how rich and nice your ex-boyfriend is, I don't give a shit. You are just making using of them getting the things you want. The things you want, don't cost a few dollars of so. Is a few hundred and what's more, he is just using his parents' money.

And knowing that the guy has a girlfriend, you went to flirt with him. Infront of your friends that know both of you?! What are you trying to tell us? Telling us that all the guys will like you and they will dumb their girlfriend for you? To me, I will only see you as the damn third party bitch. And I have bitches like you, or maybe you don't even fit the word bitch. Come on, you need to use your brain to think before you do something. Don't tell me there is nothing in between you and him because is kinda of obvious.

I don't need you as a friend because you are not worth it at all. DISGUSTING!